Selfish Me.

Today, I woke up and decided to say “Fuck you” to the people who ever doubted me, thought little of me and gave me a hard time in the past. Look at me meow =] suck my toe!! 

My cousin left for school in China yesterday, I have not spoke to her got quite some time. I miss her dearly she is very much like my younger sister. Always covering for one another and making sure we both are always feeling just fine. Jillian Avice Misouk, I miss you and I wish I was there when your plane left for China yesterday, I only wish the best for you. WHENEVER you need me I will be here for you, I have always tried my hardest to be there for you. It sucks that you are alll the way on the other side of the world and conveniency is no longer an option though I will be here for you! We can skype and send care packages to you! I love you! 

• I’ve got a lot of figuring out to do.
• I feel as if I no longer have a purpose here on earth.
• I have not volunteered for over a couple of months, I am beginning to feel a bit selfish, strictly doing what makes me happy. I have neglected my orphan Carlos =/ I used to take him to arcades, run around the park with him, talk about school, help him with his homework. I was able to treat him like a younger brother,  I miss having that companionship with him. I know that if I did makes efforts to talk to him again he will accept my offer  though, how do I explain to a teenager that I have been missing to focus on myself and do what  I want, especially to someone with his background.
• I went school shopping for myself a bit back and I couldn’t help but think about Carlos, I remember taking him to target to get school supplies. >___<  Running through the aisles, intentionally embarrassing him or simply going to Target to play their games; when I couldn’t afford to take him to a real arcade LOL… Boy do I miss him. GAH, this is now turning into a rant about my little orphan.
•  I’ll stop now before I become a little emotional bitch -____-

Life for me is becoming a bit restless between working full time, school, friends and family I no loner have time for me. I am starting to feel the effects of all of this. My body and mind is giving up and shutting down. 

The past 2 days I have had the worst luck with my car.

 95 for a new battery and about 500 for a new KEY!! Blah

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I don’t have a lot of friends, but I have a few great friends. That’s enough for me.